| There is a great woman..at least I think thats how the saying goes. I relized that my life has been filled with women who impacted how I see the world an how I feel about manythings..
_My mother_ The first woman I ever met. Shes then YIn to my fathers Yang which has help balanced my dad gruff tendancies Even now she coddles me a bit even when I moved out she supported my move. And when I returned she welcomed me the hardest.
_My sister Jane_
Out of al my sisters shes the most like me. When she was younge I was her protector. Now that she is older she sees me as someone she can confide in. I can alway talk to he abot things that hurt me.
_My sister Carla_ A very very proud girl who dislikes about all my girlfreinds. But she looks up to me..She said that She doesn't want me with a weak woman And she sees most of the women I'm with as weak.
_Kika and Hope_ The smallest of the family. They look to me for just about everything. Loveing me and knowing that I'll protet them. All the woman in my family give me the reason I'm protective.
_Emily Sischo_ My first love...the one that broke me heart. Even though now our relationship is one of distain. I like those memeories we had together. And she showed me how it felt to be in love. Even with knowing how it ended I would do it all again..
Maddy Vance._ One of the most amazing women I know. She was my shouldert to cry on. and She was my first realationship after Emily. She stick by me alway there for e. and one of my freinds who were there when I at my brothers funeral. She is a woderful woman. I'd be lost with out her.
_Amanda Timm_ Second Relationship after Emily. A strange gril who like my sisters make me want to protect her from everything I can. She helped me sleep in my own bed again when my brother pasted and more than once helped me during my time when my head wasn't right.
_Gayle Lynn((Aka Fratmom))
By Chance I met her over Xanga. but for an old lady she was always insightful kinda like having a second grandma.
This is a short list of the women who make up me...I love you all very much!! Thanks for helping me...I'm gonna need more...
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| I dunno recently with the help of my new love the center of my being is restored. I was for over a year slowly losing myself. Crying at night my chest feeling heavy with grief...but she was there. When everything in my world had felt like it was crashing town. She ran to my aid when I needed it. It been a year since we started our relationship. It's been on and off. Not because we didn't care for one another. our walls are so highly build that it took time for us to finally see each others hearts. And now that we do I don't know if I ever want to let go. Slightly apprehensive not wanting to be shattered again by my emotions. but for some reason I don't feel like shes going to leave me. I dont feel like she lying to me. I don't hear constant reports from others that she's messing around. She tell me she mine...she tell me she loves me..and I can finally say it back without it felling like i'm betraying her. When I kiss her its a small spark of what I use to feel. but that spark is growing again. And I know she will never hurt me...She is fogiveing of my faults. She is forgiving of my hesitation. She is mine...I feel better now...
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| It's been a long sad time for me. And now its one year after My brothers death. Right now No one is home with me....Most of my family is down south In georgia. I'm home alone on this day..I wonder if they are thinking about him.. I'm going to vistit his grave today. Miss you little brother. |
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| After 2009 being a very bad year for me mentally. I'm happy to report that things are starting to feel better again....its been a year since my brother died...It been over a year since my Lovely first love left me. But I've found some peace. I havea new love now. She make me feel stronger than I ever did. As always my freinds are there for me. and the best freinds I can ever imagin havein. From Maddy. TO Jeremy , to Brock and a lot of other who I know have my back in this world like I have theres. And my family who loves me. And my little sisters who are growing up so wonderfully. As I return to College. I have a feeling of renewed energy. For once it feels like I have my power back. After so much pain and trouble It seems I fianlly can walk forward again. It makes me happy. My past love I leave her in the past....to my little brother I keep him in my heart. and To my freinds and family I love you dearly. And to my future. I can't wait to meet you!!! |
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| Well I'm done boys and girls. Meh I loved being on my own. but I miss home. I'm alway broke and I messed up my college becasue I got sick. and didnt go. I'm tired of being hungry I'm tired of liveing in a crapped apartmen were my freinds dont respect the place I live. I'm tired of it. I wanna go home. My dad an I settled our diffrences when I went home recently for the most part......So I'm callin it quits and I'm leaving. My freind Jeremy isn't happy I kind didnt give him a good enough heads up. He thinks I'm chickening out. but mostly its in my best intrest. I hate to leave them out to dry. But I gotta go. |
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